When I decided to pursue writing seriously, I promised myself that I would try to refrain from writing about relationships. I am only 23 years young, and know that I have yet to gain experience that warrants any advice from me. True, I've felt heartbreak one too many times, and have found myself with men I would dare not bring home to maman; but the romantic department is one in which I am still insecure and still learning.
So, in this post I wish to discuss what I have learned thus far from my interactions with the opposite sex. Growing up and witnessing the dissolution of my parents' marriage and those of my aunts and uncles, I always wondered: "when do relationships die?" When does the fairytale end and the horror begin? When does one come to the conclusion that a love they were once so excited about is no longer worth their time and energy?
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My mother is certain that I am single because I am picky. She swears that every credentialed black man in New York City is a carbon copy of Denzel in the "Preacher's Wife", only with a suitcase of millions to match. Ladies, don't we wish that this was the case? Truth be told, I once found the quintessential good guy. The man who has done and does almost everything right. The one who comes from a good family, who went to a top tier school, pursued a well-paying career, respects women and wishes to settle down.
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Although I was not initially attracted to him for whatever reason, I forced myself to like him. I believed that I was so used to "bad boys" that I had to learn how to like and eventually love a good man. What no one told me is that just because he's a good man doesn't mean he's a good man for you. His perfection in family background, education and career does not factor in if you will always have something to discuss with him, if you two will share the same views on life and direction, same beliefs on finances and even basic expectations on love. I knew people would look at me as if I were crazy and stupid for walking away from Mr. Perfect, but I was determined to retain my sanity and to respect his time and life.
I am 23 years young. I know I have sooo much to learn, other heartbreaks to go through, and beliefs that will crumble right before my eyes. But as of right now, I know that it is impertinent for any woman and man to know the true power of goodbye: when its okay to let go...and when its okay to say "no".
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